words i've already said and thoughts i've already had.

i've said this before and i know you are all sick of hearing it, but it will get better.

i've had enough of this mindless drama...

if the "monotony" is too much for you. end it.

other wise, you have made a promise to me and i expect you to keep it. my opinion matters, my thoughts are to be heard, and if i've having a bad day you are my shoulder to cry on. you will be honest with me about EVERYTHING, you will admit when you have done wrong, apologize for getting upset with me, and treat me with the respect i deserve.

for a while now, i've begun to think you are bipolar. i am not saying this to demean you, it just fits a lot of what you do. your anger at me even mentioning it reinforces my thoughts. i firmly believe you need psychiatric help and possible medication because i know you are still the wonderful man i fell head over heels for but i feel i'm now looking at you through a fun house mirror and you have become distorted and strained.

i want MY penguin back.

if you don't want to have to work to get better (and i do believe it will improve your life and our life together) then this isn't worth my time. i'll cut ties, help you pack, and send you on your way.

because we BOTH deserve better.

we deserve to go out and have a nice meal, go dancing, watch bad movies and laugh, have nerf wars, to hug and feel safe, to kiss and feel like we're flying, and to look at each other and KNOW that the other only needs them and only wants what we already have.



i hope you read this.
i hope you agree with what i say and know that i am ready to say good bye if i HAVE to.
i hope you feel the same way about me.
i hope i'm not wrong about us.



yours,
S.M.F.

FIRST VIDEO!

I posted my first video blog on YouTube today! VERY exciting. You should all go check it out and subscribe to my channel!

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheCaptainSuzo



Yours,
Capt'n

Going Well.

Well, so far, this year has been going well. I successfully have made it to adulthood and i've reconnected alot with people so i'm happy.

Doing different things with my life, doing a couple of the better things still, and i feel happy.

So, good.



Capt'n.